So you think you dread the holidays this year because you're dealing with infertility? How about before you were dealing with infertility? I truly believe that many many people- those with normally functioning reproductive systems included- either dread or at least would rather not go to these family soirees and there's one main reason: Expectations: Either we fear that our holiday gatherings won't live up to what we expect. Or, even worse: They will.
Approaching holidays fill us with expectation: Expectations to be happy, to celebrate, to be around family, to skip down memory lane, all of us together, hand in hand.
So here we have on perfumed stationery our dainty, holiday expectation list, engraved in gold calligraphy. And on the other side, scribbled in leaky pen with a mayonnaise stain on it, is our real expectation list.
We expect that everyone will get together. We expect that most don't want to be there. We expect that most are for one of four very good reasons or a combination thereof: 1) They couldn't get out of it. 2) Free food 3) Free alcohol 4) They don't want to be the person who's talked about behind their back.
We expect that at least one person will say something about himself that he shouldn't have and at least two people will say something about someone else that they shouldn't have.
We expect some cousin to tell you how well he's doing in his business even though everyone present, even the kids, know it's bullshit.
We expect your aunt to continue the charade of how well her kid is doing and everyone else to be thinking: "Does she really not know he's a loser?"
We expect some to over-drink and all to over-eat. And we expect that some of the ones who over-drink, will somehow find a way to over-drink even if there's no alcohol served.
We expect all the food will be great while we're sitting within earshot of the person who made it and most of the food will stink when we all talk about it on the drive home in between popping Tums.
And we expect at least one person in each vehicle to put in the request:
"Remind me not to do this again next year."
But those with infertility issues also expect scrutiny and being judged and being made to feel uncomfortable:
Personal questions, embarrassing questions, extremely "not-anybody's-business" questions.
And I'm here to remind you that, while all of their baby plumbing may be functioning correctly, (although you might not be so sure when you see what they were capable of producing), your dear relatives have plenty they don't want to talk about either:
Don't ask your cousin Brian why he's 42 and still living in his bedroom at home with the New Kids on the Block posters on his wall.
Don't ask your uncle Steve why he was on the news hiding his face.
Don't ask your sister-in-law Brenda why she lives in a mansion and drives a BMW to the food stamp office.
Don't ask your brother-in-law Sam how he failed his driving test four times and his GED three times.
Don't ask your mother-in-law why every time she makes her "special-family recipe" stuffing, there's always an empty Stove Top box in the garbage.
Don't ask your second cousin Bill why he spends his days collecting disability and training for an Ironman triathlon.
And the ultimate goal for the family festivities: After the whole debacle is over, be that person in the car who says:
"Remind me not to do this again next year".......
And then put it down as #1 on your New Year Resolutions' list.
Thanks a lot for taking time during this busy season to stop by! I hope you feel even just a little bit better than when you first got here. My eBook is now available in paperback too. So if you want to have a copy for when you could use a laugh during your infertility travels, or you're tired of the waiting room magazines.. (That's Chapter 6, by the way) Or want to give as a gift to someone in your life who just doesn't get what you're going through. https://www.amazon.com//0692950117/