As any infertility vet can tell you: If you dabble in infertility treatments long enough, eventually you're going to run into a slew of friends and colleagues who are pregnant/recently had a baby. You can't even protect yourself against it anymore.
It used to be, if you wanted to stay away from potentially pregnant people you would just avoid young married couples. That was then.
Now, there's nowhere to hide.
I have single friends with kids. Friends who have never had a date... with kids. Lesbian friends with kids. Friends over forty-five with... new kids. Gay male friends with kids. Friends who swore they would never have kids... with kids. Friends who swore they could never have kids... with kids.
You start saying to yourself: "I know they're all just doing it to spite me!"
And they're probably not... Okay, they're definitely not. But, knowing that doesn't make the going any less tough for you.
You're counting down days to your next cycle of whatever assisted reproductive therapy you're doing at the moment,
and they're counting down days until they give birth or celebrate their baby's first birthday, baptism, tooth, vomit, public humiliation, zit, whatever.
I aim this week to get you to appreciate all of the "haves" in your life and to take the focus away, for at least a split sec, from your current "have-not".
And maybe we'll scratch the surface of your "just-had-a-baby" friend and see what lurks under that new mom smell... as beautiful as the whole experience is, some of it might stink just a little.
As for this week's title: "When You Don't Fit Into The Baby Club, Be Your Own Hero"
I had been toying with the idea of writing this week about the social isolation that comes along with infertility when I stumbled upon Connie Shapiro's blog post on that very subject: Of not fitting into "The Club" http://connieshapiro13.blogspot.com/ and knew it was meant to be, kismet, or bashert as they say in my neck of the woods...or at least in my original neck.
Daytime talk shows, especially, love to talk about heroes and being your own hero.
It would be great, if after reading this week's posts you feel inspired like that, but if you just appreciate the sandwich pun, I'm good with that too.
Listen, I gotta go. If I'm at the computer for too long, my husband assumes I'm checking out young male co-eds on My Space again.
I'll talk with ya again tomorrow.